Hi friends. When you ask God for something genuine, He reveals it in amazing ways. These past few months I’ve been talking with God about adoption daily and the blessings have been incredible and abundant. No, I’m not qualified in any means to adopt right now, but He has strengthened my dream, been in communication with me, and changed my mind to the world. See, when I was 16 I thought God wanted me to take small trip to Romania and that would be the end of that. Little did I know that one night of dreaming would turn into a passion for orphans all over the world. I used to just be obsessed with Romanian culture, now I’m just plain obsessed with the idea of adopting- from any culture. How much more love can God possibly give me? I cry joyfully to think that it can only get better from here. The past few days God has laid India on my heart and I can’t express how happy I am that He has. The more He speaks, the more He opens my heart to love others. Oh India, God has a plan for all your children.
Tonight my heart is breaking for those who are hurting in marriage. Recently I watched a commercial where marriage and divorce was made into entertainment. The woman proclaimed, “Who cares, we’re divorcing anyway/” JUST a divorce? Are we really that quick to give up on each other? Marriage is such an intimate relationship- on the inside it’s personal, selfless, and encouraging. However, these complexities should never be solved publicly and never for show. Fixing a marriage is a serious issue. Marriage is a personal thing I someday hope to have, and despite issues, I would hope that the issues would bring me closer to my future husband rather than drive him away. My hope for him is that he could come to me and I could come to him- that we could be faithful to admit faults- that will be the greatest “do over”, and I wish that for everyone who is married or who is going to be married in the future.
Last night, one of my Indiana moms helped us bake cookies and cupcakes for an early Christmas celebration since they are traveling and I am going home for Christmas in early December. We had so much fun decorating- it was nice to just sit and “make art” with all the busyness of my school schedule put aside for a few hours. The best part was watching one of my best friends, a new Christian and foreign exchange student, celebrate Christmas for the first time. (She said she had fun). We enjoyed watching her laugh over the movie Elf more than we did the actual movie.
Notice the angel who displays signs of hypertrophy in one wing…
Today society would tell me I’m being careless. The modern-day woman is educated, free-spirited, and free to make her own choices. She has no responsibility but herself, and she likes it that way. When you’re young, why not have fun? I choose to rise above the norm- in a world that shames motherhood over all else, I choose to commit my life to this responsibility. Yes, I am a college student. No, I cannot fully know what life will be like in the future, but I do know this: God has created me with a nurturing heart. As a young person, this may seem odd for someone in her early twenties, but for me it’s passion. I long to hear that first heartbeat, see the first photo, and sing someone to sleep when they’re sick. As I get older, God is making it clearer that he has given me a mother’s heart. This means that even if I never legally claim children as my own both through adoption or birth, my heart will take in thousands in small moments of teaching, ministry, and adoption opportunities.